Trying to conceive with no luck

Trying to deal with today’s doctor appointment. I was really exited and looking for good news. I new the chances of me being pregnant for very slim but I was hoping we could get more serious into how to get me pregnant. My husband and I have been married for about 8 months now and before we were even married we wanted to slowly start for a baby... if that makes sense. We weren’t necessarily ready to be pregnant right that second but we new going into this that it would be hard for me. For my entire life I have had irregular periods, the older I get the worst they get. Last year when I turned 23 they hit a new record of being irregular. Many many doctor appointments and a biopsy later I felt like I was going no where and needed to focus on my wedding and the exciting new chapter of my life that was about to start. We weren’t using protection, we haven’t in years and I decided to take it off my mind for a few months and just go about our life normally. If we got pregnant great! But I didn’t want to over stress and beat myself up again. I’ve always known this was going to be a long bumpy road but I am at an all time low. I’m always trying to see the light at the end of tunnel but after today I feel like I’m never going to get pregnant. I can’t even track when I ovulate if I even do because my periods are all over the place. My doctor told me today they need to refer me to a fertility specialist to go over my options and do a full exam on my husband and myself. All I can think about are all the problems I might have that will prevent me from what I want most in this life, to be a mom.