I need help😔

So, I’m currently as of today 31 weeks pregnant... yay!! Right ? Well, this pregnancy has been far from easy or the way that any woman hopes for it to go. My relationship with baby father has been rocky. This is our first child ever.... we both don’t know what to expect outta this pregnancy, raising a child together, and how our relationship will turn. Well, he’s been distant ever since I found out back in May. He doesn’t touch me. We don’t have sex. Kiss. Hug. Or even hold hands. Weird? I know right.. well I figured, I have hormonal issues being pregnant, I’ll take into consideration he’s feeling some type of way as well. Well, I’ve grown to think about the future, and try and get use to this cause sometimes it still feels so unreal that I’m bringing another human into this world. I suffer from depression and anxiety as well. I’ve had gestational diabetes my whole pregnancy due to getting checked cause I’m overweight and it runs in my family. I take insulin shots 4 times a day. Breakfast , lunch dinner and bed time. Not easy, but I do it for my son. I quit cigarettes, and I cannot take my meds for depression until I have him, so I have nothing to help me. I don’t want to see a councilor cause they push the ‘ do you wanna harm yourself or your baby’ thing way too much. And I’m not tryna hear that all the time when I don’t feel that way. And never will. My main thing is. All I’ve wanted from him is support, love and affection. All of which I’ve tried giving to him and he rejects me. He use to live with me, but moved back to his moms (he’s a mamas boy). And always says we need space when , even when we’re in the same room he will not talk to me. Just on his phone.... so space? Hes got plenty but whatever i looked passed him moving back. Well I go into labor and deliver three days ago, I’ve been CONTRACTING yes, you read that right , having contractions, for the last three days. Frequent , 3 mins apart contractions. They thought I was dehydrated, but I wasn’t they put me on two ivs for fluids and even then the contractions didn’t stop. They gave me meds to stop contractions and that didn’t even help just made me feel worse physically. Checked my cervix three times and it wasn’t dilated so I was sent home. I’ve been in pain for three days with nothing to help. And guess what he did while we were at the hospital? Went outside to smoke multiple times, was on his phone on fb and YouTube, bitched about how everything was taking long and he was bored. And I never once got my hand held, foot rubbed, kissed, talked to, nothing. Just pssedout from the intensity of the meds. Woke up to him no where to be found and went home alone and have been home alone since not knowing how bad this is gonna get. I’m terrified. Not to mention every time I call my OB with any concerns he/she gets aggravated. So I feel uncomfortable askin for help. What do I do😔 sorry this is long. I’m just going threw some things and can’t get any of this off my chest to anyone. I’m tired physically and mentally. Just drained. Any advice will help. Please positive comments.... I need it...