I found a picture in his phone - help

I know I shouldn’t have, but I went through his phone while he was sleeping this morning. And before you comment about “if you’re going through his phone obviously the trust is gone” please don’t. I know that. Trust has been hard for me lately, for a lot of reasons - not just him. So let’s just accept that it happened and I very well could be crazy? So I found some suspicious things. Which I know i probably asked for, going through his phone, but I had my reasons and I just want answers. Specifically the truth, which I feel like he’s not telling me recently. Things have changed in the past 2 months - him acting distant, rarely leaving his phone alone, being super defensive and not really talking. He’s in a tough school program and was basically the TA so he always said he was just super busy and needed his phone on him at all times. I trusted him and he always told me he would never cheat.

We were best friends before and even once we got together we were still each other’s closest friend. We got engaged earlier this year and moved in together.

The past two weeks specifically though things got weird. Before he started the school program we were having sex like 5-6 times a week. Since he started it went down to 1-2, but I knew the desire was still there, he was just busy. The past two weeks I feel like something changed though. We haven’t had sex in two weeks, which is very strange for us, and especially with how little time we spent together, makes me feel really distant. So I know that’s not unusual for some couples, but for us it is. And it was like, I couldn’t even tell if the desire was still there.

So I went through his phone. That’s already a bad sign, I know. But we had a fight last Friday and things have felt off ever since. I don’t even know what the fight was about - I walked in the door and he started yelling. Usually we talk after fights when we calm down. He’ll pull me close and say he’s sorry, or we’ll have makeup sex, or something to show that evwryrhing is ok. Nothing happened though, and things don’t feel ok.

I’ve tried talking to him about it, but he’ll get annoyed or say that he’s “just busy” or that I’m trying to find problems.

So he actually left he phone on the nightstand which was unusual. He usually keeps it right by him. I decided to look and I really hoped I would find nothing and my fiancé s woild be right, I’m just crazy and reading into things and he really is just busy.

He’s usually very careful in hiding things, so I figured if he was talking to someone he would have deleted it. So I went to his “recently deleted” photos and I found something.

I found a picture of him laying in bed, boxers pulled down, holding onto himself which was quite obviously hard.

It was the type of sexy flirty picture he used to send me when he was horny, before we lived together, trying to get me to come over. At first I thought maybe it was an old picture from back then, and he just cleared out old photos. But I restored it and checked the time stamp. It was from 2 weeks ago, the last time we had sex, but the time stamp was from when I wasn’t home. I had left 30 minutes prior to take our puppy to dog training, and wasn’t home for another hour and a half.

So I know he didn’t send that picture to me, and I highly doubt he took it for himself. My heart kind of plummeted. I couldn’t find who he sent it to, but like I said he’s careful and I would bet that he deleted it.

I checked his history for porn, thinking maybe he was just feeling himself and waiting for me to get home (bc we did have a quickie in the shower that night) but there was nothing for that night.

He was my best friend and I know it’s bad that my trust is already waning, but I just want the truth. I want so badly for me just to be crazy and overthinking this and maybe it’s hormones and I’m just going crazy. I’m madly in love with him, but I don’t think he is with me anymore. He keeps saying he is, not finding this...am I wrong to be upset? I never thought I’d be the one posting in here about this. I never thought he could do something like this until a few weeks ago when he started acting strange. And the thing is, I don’t even know what “something like this is”. Is he sexting another girl? Sleeping with her? Or was it an innocent picture? I don’t know but I feel like I’m going crazy.

I know if I bring it up he’ll get super defensive so im just going to act normal. I restored the photo to his phone and left it up, so he’ll know I saw it and if he wants he can say something. Please help and tell me I’m the crazy one and need help. I really want that to be the case