Post abortion

Hello, I am a current college student and during the summer I got pregnant. I ended up getting an abortion because both of us had decided that we were not ready and aren’t together as a couple. But its been over 3 months and there are times where I will just remember the situation and start crying. I had to wait a little less than two weeks to be able to get the abortion done, but during that time I felt like I really bonded with my baby. The night before I broke down and after the abortion I realized how much I wish things have been different and wished I had the chance to keep the baby. Ever since then I have not felt complete if that makes sense. I feel very alone sometimes and I get overwhelmed with guilt. I know I did that right thing as I was not financially or mentally ready for a baby, but that doesn’t take away from the guilt. I think about how I would be 4 months pregnant right now if I had not gotten the abortion and that makes everything so much worse. I really don’t know how to deal with all these emotions and I am scared to reach out due to the fact of not wanting to be judged. Any advice is welcomed. Thank you.