Anyone with ROCD (relationship OCD)

OCD has been something I’ve struggled with as long as I can remember. I’ve had Contamination OCD, EXTREME intrusive thoughts, time consuming rituals and compulsions, and everything else. But a new one I’ve picked up in these past couple of weeks is Relationship OCD (ROCD).

I say picked up very lightly though.

Most of my past relationships will go perfectly well for 3-6 months then all of a sudden I want to break up. It always comes out of no where and ALWAYS ends badly. Like I’ll be perfectly happen then all of a sudden I’ll get ONE intrusive thought that says “what if you don’t like them?” And I spiral from there for a few weeks to even months before it gets too much and I break up with them. And in the meantime I’ll try my hardest to push them away. I honestly don’t know why.

Well, I’m in probably the best relationship I’ve been in ever at the moment and I’m feeling the ROCD again and it’s just so awful because I know I don’t want to break up with my current partner but I’m constantly doubting that I actually like him and am attracted to him. It’s living hell 😂

I’m living in guilt and doubt and it’s all I can think of and I have no idea what to do.

OCD is a real bitch sometimes lmao

Disclaimer: I am diagnosed with OCD, I’m being treated by a therapist for it and have been for about 3 years.

Also sorry if this is all over the place, I’m having a hard time putting these thoughts into sentences because it feels like so much so going on