Afraid to test

OK so over the past 2 years I have had 1 tubal pregnancy 1 miscarriage and 2 corneal pregnancies which ended in a surgery that left me with 1 tube. The last miscarriage was Sept 18th. My hcg was down to 50 on the last blood test that I got. I read that you are really fertile afterwards and noticed signs of ovulation. So we did the deed and about a week and a half later I noticed sore breasts. Then nausea real bad and Uber vivid dreams and dizziness. Am now 10 days past when af was supposed to be here. Want this but am afraid to test in case I begin to bleed again. Would almost rather not know for sure than to have dreams crushed and be hurt again. What do ya'll think?