Needing to vent to ladies who get this. I’m just broken. 😣

We had a miscarriage at 14 weeks last December in 2018. Then just recently had another in November of this year that ended in d&c as it wouldn’t happen naturally. We are tracking ovulation, taking all the tests, all the right things.

And I have TWO sisters pregnant with healthy babies right now. One whose due date was a week away from mine. And I have freaking FIVE close close friends pregnant. Two of which I found out literally within 24 hours of each other. One friend didn’t even put it in her head how hard it would be for me to hear and was rubbing it in pretty much. The rest have been gentle telling me. It’s just not fair. The non gentle friend didn’t even try it was an accident. Why does everyone else get their baby? 😔😔

I keep over thinking every feeling I’m having. I’m 6dpo and my boobs hurt so bad I can’t even put a bra on so I’m like yay! But I know AF will just come and it won’t happen. I am so defeated.