I’m losing it

So today I was talking to my dad and he told me I needed to stop procrastinating and I already know he has diabetes but he was telling me it’s really bad and that he doesn’t know how long he would be here and hearing him say that broke my heart because he’s my rock my everything like I can’t imagine living without my dad like this really sucks first I loss my first baby due to miscarriage my daughter was a stillbirth and my dad tells me this 😢😭 oh and he was telling me my grandma don’t have long either