I have a serious problem... POAS addict!!!

Why do I continue to test knowing it's too soon, or after I have already tested that morning??? I started testing 4 DPO this cycle and I should know that I'm not going to get my BFP that early... I have a serious problem and I don't know what to do... I tested this morning and I'm wanting to test again and I'm 11 dpo today... I thought I saw a very very faint line this morning and I know if I test now it won't be there because I drank a lot of water...ugh!!! How do I stop! I didn't get my BFP until 13 dpo last time so I should know better!!! Just venting... Ugh ty! 36 ttc#1 after MC... Baby dust ladies🚼🎊🚼🎊🚼🎊