FEELING GUILTY 😒

So I had my daughter about a week ago. I started breastfeeding only but everyday the pain got worse. I started bleeding from my tore nipples, to the point where they hurt at all time unless i place a cold compress on them. I had to start formula feeding but I honestly broke down crying because I felt like I was failing her as a mother. Everybody in my family keeps pressuring me to breastfeed, to just stick through the pain until I get used to it but I literally cry everytime I take a shower of how sore they are. I breast pump in the meantime so still supply her with breastmilk but its still cost me a lot due to the pain. Sometimes I just wnat to say "screw this" and stick to formula but Instantly I start feeling like shit for it. I need some honest experiences about your experience breast feeding. 😪