Im due in 4 days and was admitted yesterday for high blood pressure and headache. They also checked my cervix but I was only 1cm so after all results came back ok and my headache went away, I got sent home. My next appt is upcoming monday and I will be 39w + 5days. They won't induce me til I reach 40w which is fine if that would be the case but..

- The tool she used to check if the blood spotting / cloth was normal was truly painful and it got me so scared. Big metal thing and I didn't even look just felt it all like someone tearing you open. It actually made me bleed more today. And was constantly wiping blood and discharge today.

- The blood test. The needle and how painfully uncomfortable it was on my hand, I got super drowsy and lightheaded and started to sweat alot.

- The IV didn't hurt as the needle was already in my hand but the gush of cold fluid running in my body got me all ansy and light headed / nauseous again. But if no blood is taken at labor then the IV would hurt the same I assume.

During my whole pregnancy I had nightmares about labor, giving birth and the worst scenario would happen in them and it caused me alot of anxiety. After this experience last night I feel even more scared for the labor and just want to cry thinking about it.

I know everyone say.. you can do it. It will be fine. You will forget about the pain. Its all about the mindset. Yadiyadi yahh.. And all that but what if I don't? I mean I would give birth yes but what if i have a major panic attack, pass out or whatever. I literally want to cry because im scared and everyone is just down playing my feelings. 🤦🏻‍♀️

Any encouragement? Tips? Advice? Experienve? Please share.