Ok so i am 17 years old and currently a virgin. But i have a boyfriend.

So obviously even though we haven’t had sex yet, we still like to do things that please each other. We have been together for so long now, about 4-5 years. So you’d think i’d be comfortable doing anything by now. But no, we still have not had sex.

He does sososo much for me to feel super comfortable around him, and pleases me like noooo other. I do the same for him, and obviously have made him feel comfortable around me, i just have such a HUGE problem w pleasing him back the same way he does to me. Guys, i do my best and i make sure to rub on him or grab him to make him feel good but that’s about it. I panic by the thought of me giving him oral and it makes me feel soo damn bad, i feel like i don’t deserve him and i know that’s stupid but yallllll, i don’t know how to get over this overwhelming feelings. I already don’t have sex with him, and i have an issue w pleasing him as much as i should. Please does anyone have any advice or tips or anything??? Should i leave him? 😭 not bc of him, he’s not the problem i am :/