It’s happening again

My mental health isn’t the best recently especially since I suffered a miscarriage around 9weeks a couple months ago.. to top it off I’ve been getting faint positives for a week and then this morning no line, and now heavy bleeding I know this early is called chemical but to me it’s still a loss and almost straight after the last one.. life’s so cruel and I’m so upset. Sorry just needed somewhere to vent as I’m so heartbroken from these last few months and have other things going on which is not making things easier for me...