Should I apologize

So my boyfriend of 8 months and I have been sexually active a few times. We both agreed that it wasn’t something that we were going to let define our relationship so we do it when the time allows but we don’t go looking for it so to say.

It’s happened a total of six times. He is also really good friends with my brother as they’re on the same soccer and lacrosse teams. During a holiday party, we were all a little buzzed and he confessed to everyone that he wanted sex a little more often, which I have too. He apologized afterwards, saying that it wasn’t the time or place to blurt that out. I said that it was okay and forgave him.

So as a ‘compromise’ we started setting aside time to ourselves. We planned out when we’d have the house to ourselves and even switched a few shifts to ‘schedule’ sex. It felt ridiculous and like I said before, we were used to it happening naturally, like when the feelings hit.

So the first scheduled time came around and we started making out. He immediately got hard and I was so eager but then something changed. I really don’t know what. But long story short, I left him blue-balled before his indoor soccer practice. I feel bad and I know that I shouldn’t because it was my decision, but should I apologize for it?