I don't feel good enough.

I've been with my boyfriend for 5 years. I don't have a job, just got fired a month ago. Due to anxiety I can't seem to keep a job. My boyfriend works. 11am-8pm he comes home and goes straight to his gaming room just to watch tv or play his video games it's like this on the weekends when he don't work as well he'll play all day. Its getting so annoying. I just want his affection. At least one day out of the week. When we do watch tv together its always what he wants to watch I never get a say in what I want to watch except for once in a while & he'd rather masturbate then have sex with me. I always find my self begging him to have sex with me. I don't get it. I'd do anything for him but I don't get the same in return. I don't know what to do. And yes I've talked to him multiple times about how I feel. It seems like it goes in one ear and out the other. I'm tired of feeling worthless. And he always tells me "if you get a job, I'd give you attention" like that makes me feel like I'm not good enough.