Mat leave is up too soon😭

I literally want to ball my eyes out. I’m not ready to leave my baby to go to work. I mean who is ever... this is my first baby and it’s all so overwhelming. I’m still breastfeeding her and want to as long as possible. My day is jammed pack with being a mom making homemade meals, laundry, cleaning, taking care of Baby etc. To be honnest the day usually zooms by and all ive done is take care of my princess. There’s usually not much time for the “to do” list. When my bf comes home I usually can get w couple things done and make dinner. How the hell am I supposed to keep up with everything and work.... any advice/ experience is appreciated.... or sympathy haha