Invasion of Privacy

I got really annoyed at my boyfriend because he told one of his coworkers that I did not like another coworker of his...because at times I feel jealous of her. She’s cute and attractive and petite and really nice, and it makes me feel like I could have possible competition. I know that he loves ME and that he does not like her like that, but because of my insecurities, I get tied up feeling irrational about things and it gets the best of me. I am not proud of my insecurities so I keep these issues between only me and him.

Anyway, I know that I also have my own list of good qualities. Everybody has good qualities to offer...it’s just a matter of realizing why each and every one of us is amazing!

So back to the story, I found out he blabbed about my insecurity issue to one of his coworkers and it got to the other coworker (the one I was feeling jealous about). Every time I would pick up my boyfriend during his closing shift, and everybody would exit, lock the building, and walk to their cars, she would smile and then look at me in such an uncomfortable way. I mentioned to him today that I sensed this awkward vibe from her.

Me: Hmm. Does she know I sometimes feel inferior toward her? She has been giving me a vibe that she’s now uncomfortable around me...

Him: Well, I did not tell her...I may have told ‘S’

Me: Did it get to to ‘A’?

Him: I don’t think she ever told her...

Me: Well, do you know that as a fact? *thinking about how it’s clearly obvious she has been looking uncomfortable toward me*

Okay, I may be assuming but I’m also good at reading people’s faces and body language...and sensed that she knew how I felt toward her.

I really didn’t appreciate that he shared my personal issues of insecurity with one of his coworkers because now it got to the other coworker and now I feel awkward when I make eye contact with her. Some things should just be kept between you and the other person involved, and it may not be necessary to share with others. It made my privacy feel somewhat violated. This particular issue of insecurity is not even something I’d share with my best friend of 15 years because it is embarrassing and I’m not proud of it!

Ugh, how violated with my privacy I feel right now...

And he does not even think it’s a big deal. Well yeah, it’s no big deal to him because he is not the one who feels humiliated.