How do you all stay sane during this?

My regular cycle is 27-29 days, and I’m now on CD30. I’m never later than 29 days. 7th cycle TTC, and just saw fertility specialist this week to start the intake process for testing. I’m very not psyched about the battery of tests, but I made up my mind to go through with them. I just want to get on with it, but I can’t schedule until AF comes. I feel like my cycle is f***ing with me.

I tested this morning - BFN, and I’m not surprised, but it’s hard not to start seeing things that probably aren’t really there. I don’t think I’m pregnant, so I just want to get on with the next phase, you know? I skipped the OPKs this month because I just wanted a mental break from it, and I feel like my body is exacting revenge with this wait lol.

How are you all dealing with this? I have a therapist and everything, but damn. I haven’t been late before and this is shittier than the 2ww usually is.