I need some advice

Well my husband are going to try for baby #2 again after two months of losing my baby a 7 weeks. I feel slightly like I have broken my word with losing my baby because I announced it my family now no baby is ever coming. I felt good this year starting which felt like a clean slate for 2020. Now like I said preparing to try again I feel a little scared to try and get pregnant then it happens again. Than on the other hand if I did get pregnant in February, I wouldn’t want to bond with the baby until it was born because then I knew I would be able to hold my baby and not lose it. I feel horrible but I just want a way to feel somewhat more comfortable with my own emotions going into trying that everything will be okay and the baby would stay. Anyone else been through how I am feeling after a miscarriage and trying again? What helped you have not so much anxiety?