So disconnected with husband

I dont know what to even do anymore. We used to talk everyday about our day etc. We have been together 11 ywars and married for 4 years. I caught him lying about spending our savings money on a new gun ( money for emergencies) and then tried to lie about it to my face. He's ,i dunno, odd...he will exaggerate and lie over stupid stuff,little white lies and i always call him out on it.

I am blind to say the least and naive and would just roll with what he was saying because I trusted him then

Now that I caught him in a huge ass lie, he lied to me about it to my face. He knows I caught him in the huge lie ,we had a huge arguement then of course nothing changed. He doesnt "understand why I dont trust him". And I tell him and hes like and like you've never lied to my face. I said the most little white lie I have told is when I last ordered somwthing online when it may have came in.

I have planned mini dates, that he has "forgotten "about. Even last week told him lets go out on sunday,we can hit thr gym together then go out on a date day. ( i am a fitness geek ,he isnt but c'mon sunday is my favorite gym day and i am inviting him to something i love that he might like but hasnt tried)

I about cried a few nights ago. I went out with girls from work afterwork and a guy told me i was beautiful, and you know I cant remeber the last time I have ever heard that. Ladies at work were also talking about stuff they have gotten for anniversaries yesterday and you know I didnt realize but he never buys me anything. Would rather blow his money on a new gun. I am always getting him something when i go out...maybe I should just stop doing that?

We dont really talk or be intimate anymore. Everything irritates me. I find out about his day on the off chance I check any social media. Yesterday I asked him how his day was ( he was off work) ,asked him if he did anything fun. He said no didnt do anything. Checked instagram randomly and apparently he had won some giant giveaway at a grocery store thing yesterday and went and got the giftcards. He didn't mention anything about it. If that had been me,i wouldve been calling him all excited telling him what happened. But no didnt mention at all just posted on facebook and instagram about it. ( i dont use facebook anymore)

I have mentiomed counseling but he wont. At this point I sometimes wonder,other than our son, why thr hell are ww even together...my heart doesnt even ache at the thought of splitting up( just anxiety of change). My heart just aches for my son.

I am just venting I suppose.