I’m just done...

Starting to come to the realization that adoption may be my only option to be a momma😞 I’m not opposed to adoption, but, I’m mad. I’m absolutely devastated my body won’t do what it’s supposed to do, everyday is a struggle. I can’t take the hurt in my heart anymore I think it’s time for me to just give up. 2 1/2 years of ttc... is this a normal feeling? I just give up completely I can’t really enjoy sex because I’m so focused on doing “everything right” and to add to it I’m surrounded by pregnant women and I think it’s time for me to be happy I don’t deserve all this hurt BUT I CANT HELP BEING SAD.