Heartbreak

December 22 2019 my boyfriend sent me a text saying he needs time to figure somethings out because we have been arguing lately about him sending inappropriate texts to his female friends and saying it was just talk he didn't plan on doing any thing with them. I found out he was sleeping with someone he use to date in high school she was his shoulder to lean on fast forward to now she's pregnant he sais he doesn't want to be with her he just gonna be there for his kid if its his kid(after they had sex she ask if he would date her he broke down crying saying it was mistake and that he still has feelings for me she left and went to sleep with one of her Children's father) but I know it's his baby I have a feeling it is and i don't think I can accept that he cheated let alone there is now a child involved.He is begging me to let him prove to me that I am who he wants a life with but I honestly am hurt and i feel like its nothing he could really say or do.we use to always talk about having a family getting married and growing together now it just seems like i feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest....just needed to vent.💔💔💔