Boyfriend doesn’t like..

This is so embarrassing but I have no one to turn to.

My boyfriend and I have been together for 5 years

He really is a nice, amazing boyfriend I couldn’t ask for anything better but

He’s very selfish in bed.

in the beginning of the relationship not so much, but he very rarely touches or focuses on me

He always getting off and any time I want him to touch me he makes no effort.

After years I finally confronted him about it and the reason he says he doesn’t focus so much on me is because he doesn’t like my butt. My butt is not like Kim K but it’s also not pancake either.

I actually LOVE my body.

But he says that’s the reason he doesn’t want to touch me at all. He doesn’t feel motivated to.

He told me he would love if I did exercise my butt

but I don’t feel motivated at all to do that just to make me look visually appealing during sex. It just breaks my heart and it hurts my self esteem. I love him so much but if that’s what stopping him from pleasuring me that’s really messed up.

I don’t enjoy giving head all the time it’s exhausting but I do it anyway because i want to please him, I just wish he did the same.. 😔

Hopefully he changes after this conversation and become less selfless in bed. Only time will tell..