Thinking about past sex life???

Have to post anonymously because I feel abit ashamed ...

So before my current husband, I was dating a guy on and off not really dating but it was kind of just having sex. And we had really good sex and I was super attached to him.. Its literally been 4 years, and I still think about the sex I had with him... and I feel guilty that I dont feel sad or guilty about it.. my husband is my world!!

My current sex life is amazing and full of pure love and happiness, my husband is attractive so its nothing to do with that. but maybe with my ex there was so much lust and attraction there with no love so it was that "sexy on-off sex" kinda vibe that I cant forget??? Ahhh seriously 4 years later!

Please dont judge lol I know it is wrong but I cant help it.