Advice please??

I don’t know what else to do.

I love my boyfriend and we have a beautiful six month old baby boy together and I love our little family. But for a very long time now I’ve been really uncomfortable around him. Since I got pregnant I feel like he just switched up on me. He went from complimenting me and making me feel good about myself to just being distant and kindof cold with me. And it’s only gotten worse. I spent my pregnancy feeling alone, unattractive and unwanted. And because his reaction to when I try to have conversations with him about this kind of stuff is usually to either get silent or be angry I ended up stopping trying to have that conversation. Now over a year later it’s only gotten worse. There are issues I want to talk about with him issues that make me uncomfortable and scared to talk to him about. Like the fact that I’m uncomfortable, because he’s aware of it. He knows I’m uncomfortable he can see it. I sleep at the edge of the bed, won’t change in front of him, hate being naked or partially naked around him. There was a time that he tried to take my towel off me once and I have been so used to him not touching me or showing any interest in me like that that I broke down in tears and ended up having a panic attack and ran in the other room. But he has nothing to say about it. We just skip over it like nothing happened. I also want to talk about our sex life because I’m unhappy with that and that has a lot to do with why I’m uncomfortable and insecure. But I can’t approach that subject because I’m not comfortable talking about it. I wish I could tell him that I wish we would have more sex I wish once every two months wasn’t all I got. I wish it wasn’t the exact same every single time. I wish he wasn’t silent I wish he wouldn’t just pass out right after. I wish it was more passionate and intimate instead of feeling like a bimonthly chore. I wish I felt comfortable to initiate sex or any kind of physical intimacy but at this point it’s just scary for me.

I’ve tried to have a conversation about our sex life and nothing changes. We’ll have sex the next day after we talk and it’s still the same and then we just go back to how it usually is. And I stay quiet because I waste my time talking about it..

I want to talk to him and I want to be comfortable. I just don’t know how to because every time there’s no resolution. I know that an apology without change is manipulation but I also know that I love him so much and I love our little family and I don’t want to break it up over something that seems so selfish. But I also don’t want to spend the rest of my life like this, changing in the bathroom, hating my sex life and being uncomfortable around the one person who should make me feel good about myself.

I don’t know if anyone else can relate or offer any advice but I would really appreciate it. I don’t know that to do anymore.