I have deep, dark secrets...

The last 9ish months have been trash and utter rubble

Around March/April, I started to get symptoms of depression

Basically the whole month of April sucked.

My parents & I weren’t getting along

Things at work sucked with one of the shift leaders and it caused a lot of anxiety that I’m still dealing with to this day

Doesn’t help that I took the SAT during all of that and you probs should know that standardized testing and I don’t mix

The summer dragged at speeds slower than molasses and I was lonely and my depression started dipping

I am pushed into senior year come August 14

And since then, I’ve seen my guidance counselor 21 times. No joke

For a wide plethora of reasons

From talk about college to mental health issues and ranting about this and that

It’s all been a nice, hot mess

Fall of senior year was time filled with depressive episodes and heartache

And tons of apathy. Nearly killed my grades...

I am also someone that has put up with the loss of a friend and am still healing from what he did to me

I still blame myself for something that I didn’t do

I would give anything to erase the past months from my memory. This year has been so painful and I need a fresh start desperately

That’s all, thanks for coming to my ted talk.