I forget sometimes.

My husband is so kind to me. I forget that I'm so plain and mediocre looking and not that great of a person.

I'm disabled and struggle in my day to day life with self esteem. My husband helps me feel like a full person.

But I dont feel like I'm a full person. I'm so less than and unworthy of him. My last 2 therapists stopped seeing me because I was too high functioning and they had "more severe cases" that needed their attention. I know im a burden, but that really confirmed it for me. Idk what to do, I dont want to open all these emotional wounds again to be told im doing great and that im not worth their time yet again.

I just dont hate myself any less. I just forget and dont think of myself as much and concentrate on others, but the moment the attention is back on me at all I know im just a disappointment to me, my husband, my family, the world, God? How can I be anything but less than?