I'll try to keep this short.

So I met my husband in March, and we clicked, like we knew each other for years, we had the same views and opinions. I finally had that moment where you take a deep breath and feel love. We got married in July, normally I would have been like Hell to the No! But it felt so right....

As time went on, I started to see actually pay attention and took off my love blinders...

My husband is a flirt, literally every girl he talks to is in a flirtatious manner. I get it, he's a people person. He also stares at every female that walks by, and doesn't matter on age. I get it, men are visual creatures but damn, every girl...dont make it obvious at least...like what a way to make a girl feel hideous. Then became the fights, he was still taking his exs daughters to school, after she had done some pretty shady shit and lied to me about it...I wouldnt have had a problem if he would have told me, but to hide it and lie, just felt sketchy. Then the fighting got worse, he literally takes every weakness I ever told him about and turns them on me....he's never wrong, even when evidence is put in front of him. I looked at his phone, which is usually against my rules...but when I did, I was disturbed by some of the things on there. When we first met he was on Match.com searching girls, even after we were dating...he watched porn everyday, multiple times a day...even though our sex was more than willing and eager....I asked if I wasnt doing anything for him and he said he doesn't watch porn, another lie...then we went to the swimming pool one day and the next day he was searching teen swimsuit f*** porn....and my heart sank, I get some guys have kinks but he's 47....so that was disturbing....the list goes on and on...

But ultimately, I feel like he put on this super good show and lied about his actual views when we first met. If a man never is wrong, always put everything on you, beats you down, humiliates you in a public parking lot, calls you a C*nt.....

I love this man so much, but holy frick! I have never been so miserable, hideous feeling, and so torn in my life.....