Boyfriend doesn’t seem to care

We’ve been TTC for 8 months, and I’m 5 weeks today. I sent him a picture of my most recent test today because I was in awe of how dark the lines were compared to four days ago when I tested last!

I went to show it to him, and he says, “oh, I saw that already.” He didn’t respond to the message I sent, so I assumed he didn’t see it. I guess he just genuinely doesn’t care that I’m getting progressively more pregnant.

I’ve struggled so much mentally while TTC, and this just makes me feel like I’m the only one who wants this baby. He has one child from a previous relationship that we’ve raised together since she was 9 months old. He always talks about how amazing it was to find out about his first, but I feel like he forgets this is my first, and I want him to be as excited for our baby as he was for his first. He literally said he doesn’t know how to feel about it.

His first was a complete surprise, and this one was very much planned.

I feel like an idiot for thinking that he would be as excited for our baby as he was with his ex. I always feel like I fall short compared to her because she gave birth to his first child. I’m just so sad and dejected.