Pregnant and barely controlling my emotions

Girls, I need an immediate help because I have no idea how to overcome this issue.

I am 23, pregnant on my 11th week, apart from all the spectrum of symptoms, I’ve been really rough on my boyfriend.

To be honest, he is doing everything he can for me and for our unborn, working full day and trying to take care of me. I know he does, because I see it

But my hormones make me completely blind and I always find negative things in him, brining up his past and trying to ruin the relationship. The thing is if I ruin it, I’ll be crying even more because I love him so much.

I just have no idea what to do and how to deal with my sudden anger... I want to be distant from him but at the same time I love him. I hate him but at the same time I love him...

It never happened before pregnancy, we’ve been the sweetest to each other...

I am aware of the fact that I am the issue... I know it could lead to eventual break up... which he’s already telling me that if I don’t stop, he’s going to run away from me.

I find a possible conflict in pretty much everything and only on the next day I understand that the conflict wasn’t worth it at all, childish and immature

Therapist?