So much guilt this pregnancy! How do you do it?

Hey guys so I just need to talk to some other mommas going through the same thing right now. I’m currently 9.5 weeks pregnant with my second baby and I have a 15 month old. I feel like I am just failing all around. We wanted this baby so much and now that I’m pregnant, I am so sick and miserable that I just feel depressed constantly. I have HG which doesn’t help the situation and my pregnancy is extremely high risk due to other factors. My house is a disaster and I haven’t been able to cook a home cooked meal in over a month. My son has cerebral palsy so he requires a lot of therapy and just taking care of him takes all the energy I have right now. I feel like I’m failing my husband, my son, and this new little baby. I’m so grateful to be pregnant, but it’s so hard to feel any joy these days. I’m hoping the second trimester will be better, but I guess I just needed to hear that I’m not alone! Thanks for letting me rant.