Is this normal?

I’ve always heard the vagina goes back to normal after having a baby, but mine hasn’t. It doesn’t look the same on the outside, the opening looks more open and I have a noticeable scar. It’s not much bigger on the inside, future partners won’t be able to tell but since I know what it felt like before, I know it’s not the same. Anyone else? I feel so unsexy.

Edit. The reason this bothers me so much (tmi warning) is because I really like big.. packages. I like the feeling of being full or stretched even when I’m having sex and I’m worried that with an average or below average partner that I won’t feel that. I was really small before and I’m used to the way that felt. I’m a very sexual person and I love that about myself. I want to feel sexy down there, not all open and loose. It’s not crazy loose but it is more open on the inside too and there isn’t the same grip, it’s just squish. It’s just making me really insecure. I don’t take the question as snotty or anything, I understand how it all sounds. I guess it just all goes back to feeling frumpy and unattractive, instead of young, tight and wanted.