Damned

My oldest is about to be 3 and I have a 1 yr old. After a while of being pregnant I was a stay at home mom again, it’s definitely had some ups and downs, but I got so used to being their primary person and just bonding with them more. I just had a c section (my second) with our last baby on the 21, and don’t get me wrong I’m grateful that we are both healthy and going through with it saved both of us. I just feel so helpless now. I can’t play with my girls or even carry them when they need me. I can’t even sleep in my own bed bc even just trying to sit up is painfully impossible and I’m terrified of popping a stitch. I have to sleep on the recliner ! I hate that I have to go through this again. Idk maybe it’s not really a big deal, I’m used to doing so much and now bc I’m limited I feel horrible.