I'm supposed to be 7 wks 2 days according to Glow.

I have had numerous miscarriages and my previous was a missed miscarriage. I needed a D&C to evacuate my uterus because the pill didnt work. It's been a devastating journey. I feel pregnant and know in my heart I'm pregnant but I'm to afraid to buy the test to confirm it because what if I do lose it again? I kinda feel like if I do miscarry then I can just tell myself I had a late period. My last menstrual was 12/7/19. My D&C for my missed miscarriage was in Aug 2019. Should I take the test or just wait it out until about 9 or 12 wks?