Self care or healing ideas?

Last year my husband passed away. His funeral was on Valentine’s Day.

I want to sleep the entire next two months away, but I have a 1 year old and that’s not possible. I’ve been really depressed. Seeing all the Valentine’s Day stuff out. The one year anniversary of his death.

I know Valentine’s is just another day, but my husband always went all out (he spoiled me every day with love and romance, but on Valentine’s Day, he always somehow managed to be even more romantic.)

I feel like an awful mom because I’m not as happy as I used to be. I get irritated. I feel like I’ve completely changed.

What are some ways I could help myself heal from this?

*i see a counselor. :( she can only get me in every two months though.