I feel so ashamed

90 days sober from drinking alcohol and I had a huge trigger yesterday and I relapsed 😭😭😭. I couldn’t stop crying yesterday telling myself I’m sorry I did this all the hard work I did to stay sober and I screwed up 😭 I feel so ashamed

I just need someone to talk to because I feel embarrassed 😭 to tell someone close to me that had been there during my recovery ☹️