Just need to rant

I cannot leave or have my current boyfriend leave me even though I know he will. There’s so many picky things about me that I will never find another nice attractive guy. I’m extremely atheist and I don’t know many atheist guys, there’s no way I’m having children and most men want families but not me. I’m gray asexual and practically asexual and most *attractive* men like sex and I do not, my current boyfriend is doing okay with my gray ace but slowly reaching his limit so yay I’m fucked and destined to be alone. Thank you for listening lol