I’m 17 weeks with a planned and very much wanted baby. But honestly since finding out the news, nothing has really felt the same. I feel so anxious and dreadful.

It feels like I only hear people complain about being a mom and how hard it is. (Obviously it isn’t easy), but I just wish more people talked about the joy of parenthood and complained less. I see articles all the time about not being prepared to be a parent or losing your identity or how breastfeeding makes you live in time blocks or so on and so forth. I find myself often thinking about all of the freedoms I am going to lose like being able to go to the bathroom alone and take a shower when I want or go to the store at 10pm when I realize I need something.

I just overall have not felt very excited or connected to my baby and it makes me feel really bad like I’m not meant to be a mom like I thought.

I’m starting to wonder if finding out the gender would make me feel more connected to the baby. We weren’t going to find out (mutual idea). I look forward to having a “it’s a _____” moment and having some motivation to push lol

Could it be hormones making me feel this way? Can anyone relate?