I don’t even know how to say it but I am going through a lot and I’m in a relationship. My boyfriend is supportive, but there are things he has done that shouldn’t impact me as much as it does, and I let it affect my self-esteem. I remember the negative things instead of the positive great memories, and there are times that I can’t stop. Has anyone ever been so depressed that any little thing can just ruin it all.

So I noticed that my boyfriend was liking pictures of other women, and yes he’s allowed to like whatever he wants but it was to the point where I felt disrespected bc he would comment on them, and i am allowed to feel that way. And I confronted him about it and it was a little tense bc he broke up with me a month prior due to my mental health. And i already lost some trust and when I saw him liking those pics it made me feel so insecure like I could loose him again. It broke my heart bc I don’t look like any of those women and it brought myself esteem so low that I would cry everyday and I wasn’t happy. And I explained to him that my depression just over exaggerated things. And he admitted that it was something he was struggling with regarding lusting after other women, and it hurt me because we are in a serious relationship. Yes i know he can find other women attracted but i felt betrayed. I felt this way bc i sacrificed so much for him i literally unfollowed so many people on insta and i even distanced myself from my guy best friend and he didn’t do anything to make me feel like it was reciprocated. I had to find out through social media and he didn’t even tell me.

I don’t care what anyone says but this really hurt me and he is changing but I just feel horrible.