so my 9 month old has always been a pretty good baby. he was sleeping through the night pretty early on and night feedings consistently lessened from newborn forward.

now that he is 9 months, this has been going on for a little while. first, he HATES being put in his crib. he will scream and cry and i continue to walk over, lay him down, pat his back until his eyes close. the second i walk away he stands up and screams and cries. i do this over and over until i can’t anymore and just give in and lay him on me in bed and he’s out.

not only that, but he wakes up SO many times during the night. it’s like a switch, he’ll be asleep then just suddenly sit/stand up fully. i either nurse him or hold him back to sleep, otherwise it’s just the crying again.

should i maybe move bedtime later? bedtime to wake time right now is about 11 hours. he is always cranky around 6PM. he ends up falling asleep if he nurses around that time and then when he wakes up i try to keep him up but then bedtime is 8ish.

maybe cut that last nap and push bedtime more towards 9? i don’t know you guys. any tips, explanations, help would be appreciated. it’s so hard as i’m a single mother and i have such a short fuse with him during the day now i feel terrible.

i find myself shouting at him, clenching my jaw, getting so unreasonably angry but i guess it’s because i just have gotten ZERO sleep and its never off with him. i don’t even feel bad when he cries anymore i just shush him and tell him stop .. :(

ugh this is not me. i’m just so exhausted and for lack of better word, annoyed. i just want this to stop and i want my sleep back.