let me explain. so we’d been talking since my friends party and i told him about all my issues and since then he’s kinda been the person i would text or call when i would feel like hurting myself or worse. and we sort of started flirting and stuff and then i told him i like him and he told me he likes me back. and he just understands me like no one else has before. he can tell that i’m stressed before i know it myself. we hung out a bit when he came over woth his brothers. he makes me feel safe and he’s honestly the one thing i could hold onto when everything else was slipping away. but we promised each other not to tell our families because we are all so close. then the other night he started worrying about how our families would react and i thought it was about time we told them but he still didn’t know how they would react and he was getting really worried and he told me we should take some time to think about it and get back to each other. and that’s why this is complicated. especially now cause i think we need to talk. he’s the first person who actually loves me in that way and who i love back and i honestly wouldn’t be alive without him. and i seriously think he’s The One. so now we aren’t dating but we talked and we decided we were still ok with doing everything we did while we were dating now. so i’m happy i didn’t lose him completely but i’m sad i can’t call him my boyfriend. and i hope we can get back together in the future because i love him so much.