What is wrong with me ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ™ˆ

Why am I SO discouraged at 7 DPO with a negative test?! Is it because of cycle after cycle with constant disappointment? Ugh. Itโ€™s like I pee on a stick so freaking early PURPOSELY to show myself its negative and its never going to happen. TTC is so emotionally exhausting ๐Ÿฅบ How do you guys stay positive?