Wednesday day night Before I went to bed I noticed some bright red spotting. It scared me but it wasn’t allot of blood. I went to bed and prayed. I woke up Yesterday morning and my panties were drenched in blood. I spent 7 hours in emerge yesterday undergoing tests and ultrasounds. I bled the whole time and am still bleeding. They saw something on my Fallopian tube and there not sure if it’s the baby or a cyst. I will be undergoing further testing today with a gynaecologist.

I am absolutely broken. I feel like I have lost a baby. It feels unacceptable to think that way before 12 weeks but that’s what it feels like. My body has failed me and my baby. I don’t know how I am suppose to carry on, how I am suppose to face my friends, my co workers. I am not okay, I am devastated and I am numb and empty. It feels like I will never be okay again.