I feel so guilty

So I’ve been free from him for a year but today someone asked what red flags we saw when first dating someone. So I mentioned how I met him at a friends and didn’t like him at all but months later I had no self love and started hanging out with him and my gut told me not to. Ignored. Anyways, he was homeless and didn’t tell me till his hotel night was up and it’s because his family didn’t want to deal with him. He was constantly mad if I couldn’t hang out 24/7, thought every guy we passed was someone I was cheating on him with, if I showed up late to get him he would get mad, he’s threaten his life, he stabbed my dashboard, but I got kicked out of my parents house and needed help with rent so I got stuck with him. He put a gun in his mouth and I dropped him and his gun off at a park 40 mins away but back where we lived. I told him it’s over and I didn’t want to be with him. He threatened to kill my parents if I didn’t get him. Texted my counselor and she told me to get a restraining order, but I couldn’t afford it. Called my parents to let them know and they were mad at me. So I picked him back up cause I was scared. It became then I couldn’t see friends or self FaceTime calls and texts then he’d threaten his life. His personality would switch from “crying” with no tears to angry. He punched 12 holes in our walls and was smoking meth without telling me. I was with him for 2 years and finally got out not by choice but because he mentally snapped and I had no choice. During the first year together I believe he drug me or smoke around me while I was asleep cause I was always sick and felt dizzy and out of it. He set me up to believe his brother stole money from me and when I reported it to the bank it sjowed me taking the money out it was about $100 and they closed my account. Tried addressing him and he threatened his life. We’ve been broken up for a year and over the summer he was arrested for identity theft, also he wouldn’t let me hold my own wallet or manage my money so that’s why I believed about his brother taking money. Anyways I feel guilty like his name somehow follows me. I never did what he did but it’s just associated with him at one point that makes me sick to my stomach. I tried applying for an account 4 years later to the same bank and they declined me and said they reviewed the file and tape. I mentioned what happened a bit and he said to get a restraining order but idk if that would even open the account for me again. And figured I shouldn’t present myself in his life again. It just makes me feel like that time will follow me around because I was his GF. I haven’t done anything but have lots of debt from during that time. He also stole checks from my parents and apparently during “work” him and his friends would rob people but yet he never paid a bill or came home with anything. And he kept denying he never got a 13 year old pregnant when he was 17 even tho the kid looks like him and his Gma sends money. Is there any legal action I should take or just let it go? Cause I’ve been free from him for a year and just now looking for a counselor but any other advice?

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