Took a test, it was negative. Wiped, and AF decided to pop up 2 days early and break my heart. It’s light, so part of me keeps trying to say the cramping and bright red blood could be implantation related, but I know it’s not.

I’m unmotivated now. My husband keeps telling me we are blessed with the two we have, we will keep trying. My sister in law is struggling with infertility, and deserves children so much, so I feel wrong feeling sad about struggling with TTC #3. Like I’m ungrateful. But I can’t help but feel sad either. My friend told me 2 is enough and she doesn’t know why we are trying anyway, I should just enjoy her pregnancy and give up on my own for a while.

I know there are other women out there trying so hard for their first, and I’m so sorry if this post seems pity filled, it’s not my intent. I’m just a little sad and feel alone and needed to vent a little to try to sort out my emotions.

Here’s to next month, hopefully❤️