Mixed emotions

I love my boyfriend but he's such a difficult person to deal with. He has a lot of quirks that make absolutely no sense to me but I go along with them as it's normal. Our taste in style is totally differe.. he prefers to be in dark areas whereas I prefer bright.

He's mentiond a few times how he wishes I didn't have my son but it doesnt turn him away from me and loving me.

He's a really amazing guy and I love him I just sometimes get overwhelmed by him and his quirks

I've thought about leaving but I can't do that. I tear up when I think about it.

Our sex life kinda sucks not gonna lie. We don't have sex often and I do wish his penis was a little biggrbut I'm not mad with it.

I think the worst part of this all is that I know I'm going to stay with him no matter how I feel because I know he will provide and amazing life for my son and I.