I give up

** look I developed ppd as well you don’t have to make me feel like shit for him not being truthful with me. Yeah I thought it was weird that he had his license like that, but I didn’t think it would escalate the way it did. I’m already on the edge as it is I can’t fucking take much more.

I was engaged to this guy, we had so much in common.. or so I thought until he got me pregnant, then started acting crazy. Talking about making pipebombs, buying a bullet proof vest, to then saying he was obsessed with the dark web and covering his tracks online because his computers were taken by police because of a 16 year old girl. (He proved his IP address hopped around countries. So his location couldn’t be tracked.) But he didn’t get charged because they didn’t read him his rights. He started talking about how he liked to play mind games with authority figures and people too. The only flag I got was that he had his physical address of his post office on his license. I just brushed it off. Other than that he seemed great. But He completely changed after I was pregnant and revealed things to me that I wish I’d known before.

Before, he said he didn’t have kids. Said he was a Christian. We “had” similar beliefs. Until I was pregnant. I’m scared to even go after child support.

I got back with my exhusband and we were going to get remarried. He provided and was there for me and my son throughout my pregnancy and 3 months after that. (His biological dad bought him socks after I found out I was pregnant...With his moms credit card... and he has money. He didn’t do anything for him. Didn’t offer to help at all.) my husband passed away on the 12th it’ll be a year on the 12th.

My friend comes in and says she was looking at memories on Facebook and saw where he commented on it years ago. And she started snooping. Apparently he’s posted a pic with two kids 3 hours ago 🙄 (funny it’s around the time my partner passed away.) my friend told me that he claims he has 2 kids. She assumed that my son has brothers. The kids in the picture were a lot older and didn’t look like him. Idk why she was snooping on the first place I don’t really want to hear about it or care about it. 🤷‍♀️