So almost six months ago my now ex sodomized me. At first I was ok. Then I started to get anxiety. I tried to forget it happened cause me and him were great friends before we dated and I really cared about him. I shouldn’t have tried to stay friends. If I said no to sex he would hit me. If I made a sarcastic comment he would hit me. He dragged me by my hair and choked me and slapped me all the time. The day before we broke up I tried to stand up for myself and I kept saying no to anal. I tried to get up and he forced me back down and started to rape me. I kept screaming stop but he wouldn’t. A month ago I finally ended our friendship and he went from saying sorry for doing it, to all of the sudden it never happened and I’m delusional. So he was never sorry he just didn’t want me exposing his ass as the rapist and woman abuser he is. At first I was starting tk get better. Then a drunk guy at a bar was getting a little touchy and now my anxiety is bad again. If I see him around school I have panic attacks again and I hate it cause it happened so long ago and I just wanna be ok again. I have a therapist but idk what to do honestly. I don’t have a good enough case to go to court with it. I just honestly don’t know what to do about my anxiety.