I want to see the two lines pop up at the 3 minute mark and not have to squint to find it.

I want to panic and plan about how I’m going to tell my husband.

I want to buy cute clothes and open a college fund account.

I want to plan how to tell our families with my husband.

I want to hear someone call me ‘mum’, make their school lunches, spend hours trying to find pairs for mismatched socks.

I want someone I can call my child, complain to my mum about how it’s not easy only to have her say ‘you were worse to me, you deserve this’.

I want to be awake till 1am worrying about why my kid that went to ‘study’ at a friends house still hasn’t come home and then think to myself ‘how gullible are you mon’

I want the struggle of motherhood and the blessing of raising a family.

I want so much I suppose, but is it too much to ask for?

I suppose I’m just feeling really down this morning and wanted somewhere to put my thoughts that some others might share. I wish you the best.

😔❤️ - Mon