Being punished

Does anyone ever feel like their infertility is a punishment?

It always creeps into my mind that maybe it’s because of things I’ve done wrong in this life or maybe a past life or the person I am. Like I somehow deserve it or at least don’t deserve to have kids.

Realistically I don’t think I’ve ever done anything really bad and generally speaking think I’m a good person but all the small things or bad traits I have just wiz through my mind.

Just wondering if anyone else’s mind tries to make sense of this crap situation like this?